Friendships

Having grown up in a small home over in Portland from when I was 1 year-old to 4 years-old, and then moving over to Beaverton at the age of 5, I didn't necessarily have a lot of connections or friendships that I made or kept. I was isolated heavily, because of my culture. In fact I hadn't fully learned English until the 2nd grade. Not very many people liked us, my family. Going into kindergarten, I had only one friend, out of the 30 or so that were in my class. I tried to talk to others, but it was hard because of the lack of language I knew, and also because of the behavior that grew on me because of not being able to make, and hold, more friendships. Because nobody else wanted to be my friend, I decided that I would very much make it clear, that I don't want to be theirs. So, I misbehaved, I did things to prove my worth, or at least believe, that I'd be proving my worth. When I had the chance, I'd talk badly about others. I'd shove them, hurt them. If somebody had a challenge, I'd take it. I'd just try to make myself look better than everyone else. I never understood how it was, how it truly was, to come by friendships at the time. I just wanted to fit in, so badly. Everyone should stay unique, there's nothing you should ever hate about yourself, and also turn that into hatred towards others. When you look at yourself don't call yourself nothing, look into a mirror, and tell yourself you're strong, and mean it. Believe it. But that does not mean you should ever go around boasting about how strong you are, but instead better yourself and others by trusting in yourself, in your ability, to do things your way.